In December 2016 I went to the ER thinking I had the flu. I ended up in the hospital for 2 weeks and a colonoscopy and colon resection surgery later I was diagnosed with Colon cancer stage 3b. 8 weeks of recovery and then in February of 2017 I started my FOLFOX chemo treatments. Man the beginning was easy but the longer I went the harder it got. Finished the treatments in August of 2017 and really started on the road to recovery. I started having a longer gap in between Dr visits and everything was looking good. About 2 weeks ago I started having abdominal pain in the area of my previous surgery so last week I went to the ER since it wasn't going away. Spent all day there and had a CT done. The CT shows a mass on my colon and liver that wasn't there on my CT from April of 2018, I am also anemic. Went to see my Oncologist the next day and he started talking about treatments. Then he back tracked and said he had gotten ahead of himself and we need to do some more testing. He wants a Pet scan, MRI of the liver, colonoscopy, blood work and other tests I don't remember. Well they sent it to the insurance company to get the PET scan approved. The insurance coming denied it. They denied it twice last time it was needed and my Dr had to call and request a peer review. The last thing my Dr said before I left was that he understands if I want to get another opinion and to just let him know where I want to go for it. I told him we will hold off until we get some results back and then revisit that subject. I am unsure of exactly how I feel about this situation currently but deep down I feel like I can't do this again. I am still fairly young at 42 and I have 3 kids from 20-11yrs old. I know regardless of how I feel I will do whatever I can to make sure I am here for them and my wife but I am already tired of this journey. I started filling out my will as a precaution. Sorry for the long rambling post. If you are the praying kind please send some my families way. If you are not good vibes and thoughts work also.