Big day tomorrow.

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I am perfectly at peace with the idea of heading out of this world, I actually relish the thought.
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Tans, I changed your thought to more of my own way of thinking. I hope your outcome is Exactly what you and yours are looking for. As for me, I am accepting No Treatment for Anything. I do not look forward to any pain or suffering, but the sooner my river crossing comes, the better it will be.
 
Just a thought.

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours”

“Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth”


🙏🏻 for you and your family.
 
I have a large occluding mass that has returned to my colon. CAT scan today. Talks with surgeon "very soon." Gastro doctor pretty dour on the pix and the size. Unsure of the future and future plans.

I have been VERY content with the last two years of focusing on diet and overall health vs going into the clutches of the medical establishment. I would like to continue this pattern to the end, if possible.

I am not at all (obviously) convinced that a regime of chemo/radiation/surgery is in fact effective in extending one's life at all. It certainly has no real demonstrable percentage effects of healing, over just ignoring it (which I am not nor have I done). This frames my base of plans going forward.

God has determined both the day of my birth and the day of my death LONG in advance. Although he determines both the means and the ends, it is a great comfort to realize that this is a part of an unfolding plan, and that my choices are meaningful, but not determinative. God is able to work through them, apart from them, or even against them. (oh the happiness of being a "Calvinist" lol)

I am astounded at the kind words and expressions of people here in this forum and outside it. I am a fortunate man to have people like you guys in my orbit of friends. It is humbling.

Prayers:
1- That if I am leaving this world, that I would die to the glory of Christ, so that people... from my immediate family outward..... might look and see "Jesus is real." He is the hero of this gig, not me nor my "faith" If there could be someone who meets Him and I see them on the other side because of my death, it is worth a thousand deaths. Grandkids of course are center stage there, but I want to be bold, and considerate with everyone.
2- That my wife (an AMAZING woman!) would continue to be full of courage, hope, confidence, and trust. She will-if I am checking out- have a full plate with my EMH daughter and autistic grandson to look after. I really don't want her to be sad, and if I have any sorrow here in this, it is over that.
3-That God would work a huge miracle (not what you think!). I am the world's worst person for prioritizing, follow through, diligence and persistence in completing projects. I literally have dozens of items that if Carole were left with them, they would overwhelm her. From disposition of tools, guns, tree removal, camper restoration and sale (my mom recently died and the camper she was in needs a lot of work to be salable and not just give it away), house repairs, finances in one clear, easy and manageable system (I have trading and investment accounts literally scattered everywhere.... I "found" several smaller accounts of crypto recently I thought had blown up and had just abandoned)... the list is extensive. We laughed last night as we prayed that God would work a miracle that makes a tumor disappearing look like small potatoes, and give me the ability to organize and streamline my life to leave her (and others) not saddled with a bunch of clutter, junk, half finished projects and detritus.
4-Wisdom on how to spend my remaining time here. WHAT to do and not just HOW to do it.

"Cheer up," the man says, "you are way worse than you think you are, and Christ's love and forgiveness is deeper than you can possibly imagine."

Thanks to all.
 
What a powerful testimony and attitude of Great Faith, Trust, Confidence, and Courage!
I was just reading Romans 8:26-30. You just brought it to "life" with the above!
There is an amazing day unfolding my brother....So encouraging to see that you are rejoicing and being glad in it!
 
I concur with @beeleafs. As a child of God, saved by what Jesus did on the cross, the hardest part is leaving our loved ones behind. Especially the ones that have not made a commitment to follow Christ. As a follower of Christ, we know where we are going. He said that he is going to prepare a place for us and it’s far greater than what this world has to offer. We don’t have to fear death because of this fact. Because for us it’s not really death but life. Matthew 10:18 says “And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell.” Living our life on earth is just a millisecond compared to what eternity will look like. And my heart hurts for those that don’t believe and will spend that eternity in hell.

Just know you and your family are prayed for. I may not meet you here in this lifetime on Earth but it’s good to know that I will get to meet you in heaven one day.
 
The comfort for me at the end as a Christian isn't just going home. But it's knowing that the last 14 funerals my pastor performed there was 40+ people surrender their lives to Christ. If I can help just one friend or acquaintance become saved I will have lived a wonderful life.
 
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I am simultaneously sorry and respectful,of your chosen end. I had an uncle, a twin of my father, who decided to le the cancer consume him.I make zero judgment. I do hope you have enough time to leave your affairs in order, I.e. you’re wife knows of your accounts and passwords. If nothing, your prognosis has been an impetus for me to do the same..
 
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Eddie…prayers up for you.

Wanna talk about it, gimme a holler….and rest easy; I won’t give you a lecture on what I think you should or shouldn’t do…just listen/talk…that’s it.

PM inbound.
 
tanstaafl72555 said:
Cat scan yesterday. Results in. Tumor "large but confined"... Talking to surgeon soon for options. I am not doing a bag. If we can remove, will be asking what the odds are for the various possible results. Know more later.
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Little different than your situation but my father had bladder cancer in 2014. His surgeon gave him his options
Diaper
Or a urostomy bag.

He said he’d rather die than wear a bag because it would cut down on his quality of life. Mom talked him into a bag and once he recovered from the surgery, that bag never slowed him down a bit. He climbed and crawled with the bag just like he did before the bag. He had to start wearing suspenders instead of a belt but that was the only difference. Just food for thought, Eddie.
 
tanstaafl72555 said:
Cat scan yesterday. Results in. Tumor "large but confined"... Talking to surgeon soon for options. I am not doing a bag. If we can remove, will be asking what the odds are for the various possible results. Know more later.
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Have they staged it?
 
Dale Gribble said:
Have they staged it?
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I am not seeing an oncologist. No plans for that. I am operating under the assumption that ALL cancer is "stage 4" by the time you can observe it. That is, cancer CELLS have spread all over. Whether they develop into observable tumors or not is dependent on whether my body's defense mechanism can fight them off.
This is a view which is outside the mainstream (SURPRISE SURPRISE :) ), and if I am wrong, may be deleterious to my treatment and inhospitable to my recovery.
We will see.
Your PM was amazingly kind and thoughtful, btw.
 
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tanstaafl72555 said:
I am not seeing an oncologist. No plans for that. I am operating under the assumption that ALL cancer is "stage 4" by the time you can observe it.
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You took the time to get a scope and a scan. Why not talk to one? You are under no obligation to submit to their suggestions for treatment if you don’t want to.
 
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You took the time to get a scope and a scan. Why not talk to one? You are under no obligation to submit to their suggestions for treatment if you don’t want to.
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I am not outlawing it. I may do so. We will see after surgical consult and all.
 
I can tell you first hand, that a sarcoma at least is something your can see and touch/feel before it's Stage IV , because mine were prior to the radiation and surgery. Since THREE prior surgeries("it's not malignant!...oops yes it was") had scrambled the actual tumor site prior the the Big Surgery and radiation they were concerned the cells might migrate. I've gone through umpteen CT scans and MRI's and I'm closing in on 6 years with no sign of any cancer.

You're in the nightly prayer list until you tell me otherwise.
 
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Prayers up, Eddie.

Shari and I have discussed many times the beauty we will see on the other side. To look upon the face of our Lord, and to fall at his feet weeping and praising Him!!!

Know this, though…..
There are a lot of people in this forum that have been and will continue to pray for you and Carole and your family. I’ve not met you face to face, but I’ve seen your posts for years. You are well known and respected here, brother….

At the end of the day, God’s got this…..
 
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