So here I am…

dlee12

dlee12

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For the last 10 years or so, I have actively avoided religion….

I was raised baptist, baptized in 2012 or so, and once I went through my divorce I spiraled, filling the emptiness with booze mostly, making the seven deadly sins a checklist….

I never could fill that void, just felt empty.

My youngest, on the weekends I have him, would occasionally ask…”daddy, are we going to church Sunday?” “If we have time buddy.” Was my typical response.

I finally hit the bottom…had all I could stand. Work stress, home stress… gave it all to the Lord, and begged forgiveness. I took the boy to church, started reading the bible again, and doing a daily devotional.

So here I am… I can’t say it was like flipping a switch, but I’m working on my personal relationship with God, and to be a better husband and daddy.

I wanted to share, not for pats on the back, or welcome back to the flock…but to encourage anyone in a similar situation, or any situation where you feel like hope is lost, you can always turn to Jesus.
 
Go to church. Just remember, church is an intensive care unit for reformed sinners, not a sanctuary for saints. Let God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit be your companion and support.

Congratulations on re-starting your relationship with God. If I can help in any way message me.

Praying for you.
 
mostly22lately said:
Glad for you. And your son.

Also hoping you decide to get back to your radio hobby and renew that license while it is still in the grace period.
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You a ham? Me too... can you hit the Newport repeater from there?
I have to get my gear set back up...
 
mostly22lately said:
Glad for you. And your son.

Also hoping you decide to get back to your radio hobby and renew that license while it is still in the grace period.
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Thanks!

Believe I just missed the two year renewal mark…forgot all about it. I dunno if they’ll grant a waiver, but I’ll see what they’ll do.
 
B00ger said:
This is the way. If you need anything, reach out. I believe I am local to ya.
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Thanks B00ger, you used to be! We just moved east a few months ago. Home for me, new territory for the wife.
 
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Man, during my first marriage "we" tried to find a church, but nothing was ever good enough for her.
I was no saint, but raised Baptist.
We split after almost 12 years (her doing) and a few years later I remarried, then she remarried and actually bragged to my mom that she was marrying a good "Christian man". Made me feel like my previous prayers were disregarded.

We had 2 kids, and she became their enabler, and I developed a hatred for her that ate me alive and affected every part of my life.
Years later my second wife and I found a church that was/is awesome.

The pastor preached a sermon about forgiveness one Sunday. At the end of the service we were asked to right the name of those we needed to forgive on a piece of paper, and throw it into a bin on our way out. They were going to burn that bin later that day.
I had absolutely no belief that my bottled up hate could go away that easily.....but I wrote her name on that piece of paper at the last minute...and before we got to our car in the parking lot I felt the weight of a ton of bricks taken off of my shoulders!
My hate, that messed up everything about me was gone....never to return.

That was over 10 years ago.
 
Well, looks like I need to get that waiver submitted…was KK4CFW…now..we’ll see!
 
Snal~ said:
I had absolutely no belief that my bottled up hate could go away that easily.
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We often mistake forgiveness as a magnanimous boon we're supposed to grant to someone who did us wrong, someone undeserving. Nope. Turns out it's one of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves - relief from a hellish burden.

Power to ya, @dlee12 !
 
Good on you! Sad you have moved east and I don’t see you at the Winston show anymore, but I hope the move will be a good thing for your family. We are here for you in the ether, regardless of our physical locations.
 
dlee12 said:
For the last 10 years or so, I have actively avoided religion….

I was raised baptist, baptized in 2012 or so, and once I went through my divorce I spiraled, filling the emptiness with booze mostly, making the seven deadly sins a checklist….

I never could fill that void, just felt empty.

My youngest, on the weekends I have him, would occasionally ask…”daddy, are we going to church Sunday?” “If we have time buddy.” Was my typical response.

I finally hit the bottom…had all I could stand. Work stress, home stress… gave it all to the Lord, and begged forgiveness. I took the boy to church, started reading the bible again, and doing a daily devotional.

So here I am… I can’t say it was like flipping a switch, but I’m working on my personal relationship with God, and to be a better husband and daddy.

I wanted to share, not for pats on the back, or welcome back to the flock…but to encourage anyone in a similar situation, or any situation where you feel like hope is lost, you can always turn to Jesus.
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Well the last line of your post clearly shows that you have arrived. Congratulations, you figured it out.



One day maybe I will.
 
I remember being pretty low after my first wife left. Was 6 hours from home didn't have any real friends and wasn't sure if I wanted to go to church at all. I woke up one Sunday and said I'm gonna go. I went to a bigger church than I had ever been to and asked an usher about a Sunday school class and was ushered to a classroom for young adults. I met the teacher who was the youth pastor the first time, again totally by random, his lesson that day was reasons biblically for divorce and the adultress' lips being as sweet as honey. It was God speaking directly to me since my wife had left with another. No possible way that it could have been planned by anyone besides God.

Hang in there
 
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